Figuring things out, coming to terms or something like that

Still in the car, so typo precautions are still in effect. I've been thinking a lot about this house ordeal, which in a funny way seems to be a weird representative of my life as a whole and the house thing is just some metaphorical symbol. When we listed the house in December, I had reasonable hope it would sell smoothly. Afterall, my job situation fell into place in such a way that I couldn't imagine the rest would not follow suit, and I also assumed that our path was meant to take our family in a certain direction, or location, for that matter. Our first offer was quick and fair and it fell through just as we set our sights on the land and house we wanted. The second offer was insulting. We let our emotions control us and now we realize that it really wasn't that bad. Closing would have been this weekend, which means we wouldn't have gone to South Carolina, and I think I would have regretted that for years to come. There was hope that we could have made a third offer work, but that now also seems unlikely. So what am I getting at? I am not really sure. I've done a ton of praying...for the house to sell, but not as much for me to be able to recognize the direction we should go, and now, I think I've been chasing the wrong dream. It was my assumption that we were meant to live a certain way and that the way I had it planned out is what would be best for my family. In the meantime, I've been very consumed with stress and worry, which I can't deny have likely effected my family, too. It is never easy to step back and ask whether things just aren't working because He is stepping you through the challenges or whether His path is not the one I want so badly, and therefore, is difficult because it isn't the path He wants me to follow at all. I still really don't know the answer as to why this isn't working. In my mind, it only makes sense for my family, but I don't have the ability to know the end result so I am changing my prayers. It makes me sad to think that maybe the house we've been planning for isn't going to happen,but I certainly don't want to pursue something that He doesn't want me to or that will create further stress on my family. My new prayer is to simply know whether to continue this journey or stop, and then, to have the wisdom to know when to hop back on.