So much depends on...

Two weeks until closing and we are still waiting on two very important documents before we can go to underwriting...and that has to be done Monday. Needless to say, I am freaking out. I'm freaking out a lot. My personality trait of compulsive worrying is kicked into major overdrive. The document we need the most was mailed from California Tuesday (of course, California. Can't be Missouri or anything close). If it doesn't get to us tomorrow, I am afraid to think of what the results will be.

Besides the fact that our house is half-packed, the kids start school tomorrow...in a new city. All the neighbor kids started today at Central. In a way, this makes me so sad. I feel like I am upending them (especially Ella) and so much depends on a stupid piece of mail from California.

Because I worry so much (about pretty much everything), I have this "coping" strategy where I think of the worst case scenario and if I can deal with that, then I can usually relax. In this case, if we don't get the mail we need (oh, by tomorrow), and if this falls through, I will have to unpack my house, transfer my kids, .... I really can't even think about this.

God has really seen us through a pretty amazing journey. I am choosing to believe that it isn't going to all come down to the US Postal Service. However, I will take all the prayer anyone might be willing to send our way...for a speedy mailman, for a great appraisal, for final underwriting, for a successful closing, and for easy transitions on my kids as they start school tomorrow--counting on Mom and Dad to have made a good decision in their lives.